::another day passed by without touching the books..lolx..yawnz..dunno why so tired sia..no mood to study again..but needa work hard..if not monday and tuesday cannot make it liaoz..think i needa go back to school tml to be able to concentrate on my books ya..hahaz...but need to fin a companion u see..if not will be bored to death...maybe bring my lappy along..but bring lappy i will use my lappy..hahaz...so better not..so bored sia.. surfed thru the net and found these quotes..u guys and check the rest out at here...
http://lovequote.com/famous-quotes/lovequotes1.php

Quote 1
When love beckons to you follow him,
Though his ways are hard and steep.
And when his wings enfold you yield to him,
Though the sword hidden among his pinions
May wound you.
And when he speaks to you believe in him,
Though his voice may shatter your dreams
As the north wind lays waste the garden.
For even as love crowns you
so shall he crucify you.
Even as he is for your growth
So is he for your pruning.


The Prophet by Gibran Khalil Gibran

Quote 2:this is the defination of frens???lolx..
FRIEND:
A member of the opposite sex in your acquaintance who has some flaw which makes sleeping with him/her totally unappealing.

The Dictionary of Dating...Unknown author

Quote 3:
If something happens you cannot control, then life isn't going to wait for you to catch up; you just have to keep on moving with life. If it's a boyfriend problem, then think, I'm worth way more then all this. I'm going to make it and life goes on.

Anonymous

Quote 4:
Love is as much of an object as an obsession, everybody wants it, everybody seeks it, but few ever achieve it, those who do will cherish it, be lost in it, and among all, never... never forget it.

Curtis Judalet

ok guys..read this and go to the webbie to view it ya..hehe...see ya...
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.:Ah Hao blogged on 10:22 PM:.
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::haha..finallly i got rid of my bstats module...i think i did pretty well for this paper ya..hahaz...at least i am confident that i will pass now...lolx...one down three to go...b4 i am free for the holidays...didn;t sleep much last nite ya...from ard 330am to 630 in the morning...woke up took a cab to sch to have time to revise..hehe..it was worht the money yea...hell yeah it was...cause i took the time to revise the two topics and they came out...hahaz...so happy...after the paper went to play pool with weide and his fren marcus..had quite alot of fun..played quite well today..lolx..after that had lunch at bukit timah plaza..and we went home..was nearly bashed by a caucasian mother at NTUC bukit timah today..lolx..we wear having our own laugh at the supermarket when we walked pass a young caucasian boy...then his mother tot we were laughing at her kid and she walked pass us and gave us a "ha ha ha" in a very scarstic way...it was super funny sia...then after that we continue having our laugh at our joke and i guess the lady tot we were talking abt her and looked annoyed...hahaz...last nite had a very nice time chatting with sophia...manage to clear alot of stuffs..feel better now...dun worry abt mi ya..haiz.. although there was alot of She Bu De..but some stuffs are not always there to be ya..so we have to look forward and not backwards k...it;s easier said than done..but it can be done ya...so must Jia You le..hehe...reached home at ard 4 today...went to sleep and woke up at 7 to take a look at the sun wu kong show..hahaz...super funny sia..but abit lame..lolx..but lame shows are really catchy..hehe..better than those auntie drama...cry the whole day one..not sad also make ppl sad liaoz...haiz...then had dinner..the chicken wings tonite is superb..hahaz..haven eat that for ages le..hehe..so it taste really great...sometimes i think my mother is the best cook in the world...hahahahaz...but as her son..i am not that far away ya...so who wants to try my cooking??hahaz..guess everyone ran away..lolx..but nvm...i like my own cooking..hahaz...rest for today..tml onwards have to study hard le..micro and cip coming up...must jia you also..hahaz...dun wanna repeat semester here..hehe..waste of money and time...going off...dunno wat to write le..hahaz..tata..::

.:Ah Hao blogged on 10:08 PM:.
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::haiz...another day spent doing nth...siao liaoz..thursday is closing in and i am still left with so much to catch up..lucky tml got study session in sch...if not i dunno how liaoz...hahaz..watched the final episode of the channel u 7 pm show..it was kinda lame ending for such a nice show...wah laoz..abit disappointted...but it is only a show nia..so it's ok...tml onwards is the monkey show le..haha..zhang wei jian...nice fella..i like his shows...hahaz..kinda bored now...the online world getting boring by the day sia...no one to talk to...lucky i have sophia to talk to..kinda miss her sia..but u know..hahaz..so just like that lohz..some things are better left unsaid u know..hehe...forgive mi if i have been crappy..hehe...so sianz now..brain in a blank...might come back later to add...so see ya...::

.:Ah Hao blogged on 10:11 PM:.

::yawnz..just woke up..hahaz..reached home at ard 310 last nite after supper with xw and guys..hahaz..had quite a good time..hehe..but i ended abruptly for my posting last nite that explains why i am back here to write somemore..hehe..last nite was a happy nite..at least to mi...hahaz..heard from this ger that i liked who told mi that if i had just been a step earlier in the past wat is happening now might be a totally different story altogether for the both of us..although this matter was like blown over ages ago..but it has always been on my mind..sometimes i also thought that if i had been more persistent in the past...would things turn out the way i wanted it to be...hehe...but wat to do..life is full of regrets and we cannot always live in the past ya...have to move on with life...so it's great that we are good frens now ya..we wun know wat will happen in the future...so just have to look forward to life...hehe..but hope that u will get to enjoy life to the fullest and stay cool and funky always...most imptly...stay Happy..hehe..wat's done cannot be undone so be glad with wat u have for the moment now... :P thursday is pressing nearer and nearer...sianz...nth regarding bstats is in my brain now..die...hahaz...how sia...thursday morning paper somemore...hahaz...hopefully tml susan can be my saviour again..haha...i asked her to tutor mi in sch tml...last min drilling...hope it goes in..hahaz...I DUN WANNA FAIL STATS....hehe...that's all for now..write again tonite..hehe...::

.:Ah Hao blogged on 2:37 PM:.

::haha...had a really bad scare when i could not log onto blogger..that means i cannot update this wonderful blog of mine...hahaz...THANK YOU SOPHIA FOR UR WONDERFUL BDAE SONG AND UR ENCOURAGEMENT..HEHE..just sa w it today..although it was late..but i am still touched...it would be better if i had a pressie to go along with it...muahahahah.... :P glad to see that ppl ard mi are happy..haha..it makes life better...today is another boring day....as exams press nearer...i tried to study but i could not even squeeze anything into this small brain of mine..so i stopped and came online...i have a lot of sandflies bite on my arms and my back..so itchy...but cannot scratch..cause scared got scar..hahaz...ai mei mahz...wat to do..hahaz..hope that exams come quickly and i cna get it over and done with smoothly..then enjoy my may holidays..before i start to prepare for FOC 04/05...looking forward to that sia..haha...really miss the FOC peeps...dunno why..they are really cool to be with..hahaz..nice to talk to..have alot of fun with them...lolx..especailly dduring the matricualtion period...remember all the crap we had..haha..the hamster joke..and the outing that we had on saturday...hope to see them soon enuff..been really a good weekend for mi..so i hope it continues endlessly..haha..so that i will remain happy...and for my frens as well..although my bdae was not really good..but it was still ok..okie..going for supper with xw le...he picking mi up...update u guys another time..signing off...Cheers..::

.:Ah Hao blogged on 12:15 AM:.
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::been a while since i last post..three days i guess..watched a movie with my cousins on thursday nite...and they got mi a hugo boss fragrance for a bdae gift..the one and only one this year...haha..was so happy..cause i got at least something for this bdae from someone close...then after that i spent the nite at my cousins house b4 going to a fishing trip on friday morning..we went to sembawang area and start to use casting nets to try our luck..it went well at first until we moved in to the inner part of the route...it was hell of a long distance from where we placed our stuffs...then we stayed at the place till it reaches high tide and we made our move...but who knows whilewe were making our way back...i got stung by a jellyfish...ouch..it really hurts and my ankle was swollen...tot i got poisoned or something..then we decided to leave the water and move on to the road which is like behind the shore and start to make our way back..but bad things seems to happen twice in a row...it started to rain shortly..and it got heavier and turn into sort of a thunderstorm...lightnings were all ard..quite a few times the lightnings were jjust struck just beside us...was so terrified and the journey to where we left our bike and the exit was super far away...it was defiently the "longest" journey and the most scary one of my life...braving through the storm with lightning strking almost every other 15 seconds...it was really bad..if u never experience it u will never know how much u will wanna live on with life to finish up your unaccomplished matters..alot of tots went thru my mind and a few persons came to my mind...some ppl that i wun want to forget and some ppl whom i felt that i have some unfinished stuffs with...luckily we survived the storm and reached my cousins house safely and we had a long hot bath b4 we made our way to the chalet that was set up for my grandfather's bdae...we reached there at ard 5 plus in the evening and start to do some cooking straight away.haha..that was how we spent the first nite there...then the second day...we woke up darn early to go to the market to buy fresh food for the bbq later in the nite...we got some fish,crab,sweet potatoes and lots of other stufss..yummy stuffs of course...then we spent our day preparing the food and sleeping and not forgetting a dip in the pool...later in the evening someone familiar shouted out my name in the chalet premises and i saw samuel...haha..he was there for joyce's bdae...joyce's a ger from my lecture hall and my fren tried to woo her last time...hehe...i am not that close to her either..so i did not approach her unit to pass her my greetings..hahaz..and she is 2 days younger than mi ya...haha..my bdae on the 22nd and hers on the 24th...lolx..after our bbq and everyone decided to leave the chalet...we made a quick pack up and went fishing again..hahaz..but we caught nothing the whole nite...was super boring sia..hahaz...so we made our way back after like 1 hour there..hahaz..and something to add to my bdae..actually my buddies remembered my bade..at least XW did..was so happy..haha..although the greeting came late but i was so happy..hahaz...dunno why...guess i am crazy..i quite enjoyed my bdae celebrationt his year..now it is time to buck up and start studying for exams...i dun wanna fail stats and repeat the semester..hehe..ok then...gotta go...::

.:Ah Hao blogged on 4:41 PM:.
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::HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MI...HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MI...HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO GARETH'ZHIHAO...HAPPY BIRHTDAY TO MI...HAHAZ..I AM 19 YEARS OLD LE..BUT STILL I NEED TO SING MY OWN BDAE SONG..PATHETIC HUH...::

.:Ah Hao blogged on 2:24 AM:.
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::Yawnz...another day has just passed..another 45 mins to my 19th year on earth..another milestone...but nth to be glad abt for mi it seems..it just makes up to be another day and i have to passsed it..happy or sad..with celebrations or without..haiz..i guess it will most probably will be the latter for both cases..but nvm...try to make myself more happy then..i will try..been another boring day..spent the day at home..was reprimended by mum for using her money without authorisation..hahaz..it's really been sick to live like this..but i dun wanna end my life as yet...cause there are still alot left to accomplish..i wanna have a taste of army life..hahaz..and life being a husband to some gerl i love and a dad to a child...hahaz..but i guess i am dreming..dun even know if i would get to have anyone dear to my heart as yet and i am thinking of getting married..lolx..really tired..dun wanna remind anyone of my bdae is to see if anyone really remembers my bdae is on the 22nd apr of every year..guesss this date only appears once every ten year...o maybe even more in my frens' calendar..cause it will take ten years to let them remember my bdae..sometims i think i am sick..i nned to have attention..i dunno if i am really an attention seeker or i feek empty at heart..i guess i am...and i am having a very serious one..my heart hurts when i see that i am unimportant to even anyone..no one listens to watever i say in a conversation...it happens everytime..so i am used to it....but being used to it does not means that i am happy with it ya...haiz..getting more frustrated with the progress i am making in this blog tonite...i will stop b4 i get my exploded...BYE...::

.:Ah Hao blogged on 11:15 PM:.

::haha...guess i haven been writing for days le..cause for the past two nites i was out...so tired...yawnz..hahaz..tml is my Bdae..but there is nth going on for mi..guess i'll celebrate it this year with my ITE frens again ya..hahaz...so sad...no one seems to remember...but who to blame...haha..exams period and everyone is busy...maybe i am just not pouplar enuff for ppl to even bother to remember anything abt mi except for my name..hahaz...but i got a bdae greeting from Amber's sister last thursday..cause she remember wrongly the date..haha...but at least she knows that my bdae is near..hehe..kinda comforting..coming from someone whom i know but not really or nvr was close to...hahaz..Thank you Eve for the Msg...maybe u will be the first and the last one this year...hahaz...who knows...my buddies are all quiet abt my bdae every year..dun even know if anyone of them actually remembers when is my bdae...hahaz..let's stop the thingy abt bdaes...it will get more depressing...le's talk abt exams..i haven start studying yet..i think i am the last person to start...all my frens all start stuyding this wek..but i am still in a play mood...die le lahz..i dun wanna fail this coming exams..but i just cannot seems to have the motivation to sutdy..maybe becos of my bdae that is coming tml..hahaz..dunno lahz...just canot make myself to sit down look at the book..hahaz...i guess the exam topic is even more depressing...hahaz...so why was i missing for two days??cause i was out on monday nite and tueday nite...went drinking on monday nite with jeanette..end up going home myself when some guy she knows met us and that guy sent her home..left mi out alone...then last nite was even worse....went out with her and her frens ask mi to go to sparks..pengz..hahz.it was as if we booked the whole place..not even a single soul in there...dunno wat's the fun there sia...it was better at music underground where there were this two professional dancers in there..performing sia..lolz..but they were males...hehe..at least at MU there are alot more ppl...looks more like a club..hahaz...hell to sparks...hahaz..nvr gonna step in there for the future liaoz...tonite is the eve of my bdae..dunno if anyone or even my buddies will ask mi out not..hopefully someone asks mi out...but not clubbing anymore...haha..sick of it...jeanette stilll ask mi go to mambo tonite...later end up i have to go home myself again..so i think i will not take up that offer..hahaz...see if any better offers to come along...i am now rotting at home again...guess i will not go out tonite..just stay at home and use the com..hahaz..watch tv...hahaz..nice way to spend bdae also..hahaz...then can save money for my shopping...hahaz..ok..gotta sign off..dad coming home le..must do some house work...tata...filing in tonite...
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.:Ah Hao blogged on 1:32 PM:.
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::Hey HeY!~!~!~! haven been filling up the blog over the weekends cause i was really busy ya...hahaz...went for the last day of matriculation on saturday and after that went out with all the peeps from the booth to town...wat a day we had..had alot of jokes ard...hahaz...especially with the one abt the hamster getting an insurance one...all thanks to robert and rhino(i guess it should be this rhino)and not forgetting "Maggi mee"...hahaz..had so much fun on that 171 to town...nearly cannot alight the bus due to the overload of laughters...had a fine day with them and we walked our way from far east to PS...that is quite near actually..so it was still ok..after which we had dinner at PS and we made our way off individually to have our own programs..some of them visited chinablack while i met my rugby mates at Scotts(had to go back to orchard from PS...tiring sia..haha..)and we made our way to MS after that...we reach the intended place we wanted to visit and found out that only 20 years old and above are allowed to enter..haiz..still 1 year short...hahaz...so no choice..we had to leave the bigger grp and i went to Cheekyz with azri..then found out that azri had so much frens in there sia..hahaz..almost every corner got his fren...then we had some drinks and shot some pool and wait for time to pass...(actually i was quite bored..haha)after that..i left the place without azri and took a breather outside the club...then Jachin asked mi out for supper at Newton...so i joined them..haha..."throw" azri with his frens in Cheekyz...after supper i met adam who was at chinablack also..to go home at newton...i made him come all the way down to eat..hahaz..finally i reached home at 4 am..hahaz..was so tired that after a wash up i fell asleep immd...then sunday was a more uneventful day...i slept till 1 pm..haha...8 hrs of sleep...healthy lifestyle..after which i joined my parents for lunch...then did nth the whole day and in the end went home and had dinner with them again..hahaz...so that was how i spent sunday...lolx...ok..got nth else to write le...willupdate tonite abt wat happened today..going for my haircut le...finally...hahaz...see ya..::

.:Ah Hao blogged on 12:58 PM:.
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::hi...i am back once again to fill in my blog..the outlet of fun and stress..haha...today is a fine day...did not go for the tutorial today...cause helping out at the matriculation exercise..it was fun..to see so many ppl at the booth...felt so comfortable with them compared to TF21....the hell for mi now..one of the reasons i skipped class today..i just realised that it is so much fun to be able to convince someone to believe in all that i sya..i certainly feels good...met quite a few cute gers today at the matriculation asking them to join us at FOC...and they signed up...like that sarah,vanessa and that rodigrues...haha...although just looking for fun...sophia said that i chee hong sia...sad le...haiz..long time nvr talk to her le...was fun really to have been able to see her once again...makes mi feel like i am a freshie again...hahaz..but this year i am gonna take care of my freshi like wat they did last year...dun worry...i will do a good job....muahahahahaha.....hopefully ththe good looking gers are in my grp...and oh ya....tml is BA's turn to matricualte...see gers time..haha...after somany days...finally got a day where it is overpowered by gers...hahahahz....hopefully this year BA intake will not be so disapponting like last year's BA intake...more cuties pls...hahaz...tml is a huge "massacre"...lolx...have to go and get as many ppl to join FOC as possible..hopefully alot of cute ones..might skip Lms for the matriculation...hahaz...but i wanna go for lms..hahaz...contradicting..cause lms class also got chio bu...hahahz...just say say nia...also no guts to go ask number...hahaz...haiz...sometimes when u see a fren who is sad..i think it will sort of bring myself down...like wat this fren of mine shared her problems with mi today...i cannot help but feel sorry for her..but as a guy i cannot give her very sound advice cause it will surely be something negative..but at the same time she looks really sad...dunno wat to do for her...just as helpless as i am towards my own problems...everyone says that human are selfish beings...i think sometimes i am not human at all...or most of the time...i can make everyone ard mi happy but i just cannot make myself happy...dunno why...maybe i need a shrink soon...needs someone to talk to...but no one to talk to...listening to the radio now..hahaz.realise that life is funny..someone whom met each other for 6 dyas are together for 5 months le...and she still loves that guy deeply..haha....is it so easy to fall in love nowadays??seems like i am the difficult one now..lolx..and the dj mentioned frens forever..something that is oftenly heard but not usually ard...what is happening to my world???hope that this blog will help mi to keep my feelings..cause it is painful to keep pain to myself...and joy also...cause if there is no one to share my joys...it will turn painful as time pass....i am a good listener to other ppl';s problem but dun think i am someone to share problems...hahaz...that is mi...sometimes i hate myself...hahaz..but i also love myself sometimes..but i guess i hate myself more often than i love myself...hahaz...wat's life??meant to be a road that leads to death...so am i waiting to die??i hope not...that is all for now..dunno wat to write liaoz...see ya later...Cheers..
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.:Ah Hao blogged on 10:00 PM:.
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::haha...back for the second time in a night...the nite is so warm...the fan is like blowing mi with hot air....abt to faint le...still chatting online with alison...haha...found out that she is so surprised that i can cook...hahaz...she's cute...but too bad...she does not like classmates..hahaz...been really confusing lately...dunno wat i want in life...i kept asking myself that..maybeask too many times le..then even mi myslef grew bored of it..then i start to imagine wat life would be...haha...but i always think of the bad stuffs...cause i cannot see anything bright in front of mi...haiz...no luck in watsoever i did...irregardless of school,sports,work,love life,frens, almost everything...seems to be drifiting apart...life kinda suck..i am a big pessimists at times..but i try to be more optimistic le..but no one seems to care so i just dun bother abt it too..doing personality test now...dunno if wat comes out is true abt mi...anyway i also dun really know myself and wat i want...that's all for now...hehe...::

.:Ah Hao blogged on 11:21 PM:.

::Hi..i am back..Yawnz...went to sch and had a day full of activities again...went to help out at the matriculation exercise in sch today..kinda fun..haha...but alot of guys today.. disappointted..but wat to do..engineering school mahz..hahaz...so alot of guys...gers who are cute all came with partners..lolx...then the rest no need to say ppl also know wat happen le...hahaz...i know i am being bad here...but i am bad... :P tml going to help again...see if got any better gers ard..lolx..so tired now..but i dun wanna sleep early...just finish dinner...guess all the blood went to the stomach that's why i am sleepy..hahaz...saw srimal today....my bb officer last time...hahaz...see him liao then let mi think of all those good old BB days again..haiz..all those footdrills up and down the parade ground..life has nvr been that fufilling ever since i parted ways with the company...haiz..but wat is meant to happen has already happenend...no point being sad i guess...just for mi to miss those good old days...i am starting to love this blog thingy...although no one reads mine...but that's cool too..cause i can say watever i want....hahahaz...evil grin...that is for now..talking to alison...hehe...might add more later...::

.:Ah Hao blogged on 10:08 PM:.
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::haiz..another day of my boring life has passed once again...this morning suppose to go for my revision lecture but in the end i nvr woke up on time again...hahaz..that's the usual mi...i guess no one is watching this also...hahaz..so i can write all i want here...another boring day...went to sch at 3 pm..go home at 5 pm..something to be proud of myself today..i cooked spags for dinner tonite...it was super nice i tell u ppl out there..haha...whoever marries mi will be so fortunate..although i made a super big portion but i manage to finish all of it at one go...haha...i am so filled up now...but life has been so boring to mi...i dunno why...feel so out of place everywhere i go..no matter in class,in school,at home,with my frens almost with everybody..no matter with strangers or with ppl i have known for years..feel like i got no one who really knows mi and how i feel...how i miss my sec sch days when i can see and talk to everyone in class freely....my present class is just a combination of individuals who just says hi and bye to mi...maybe days iin a school uniform is better than this days with ppl wearing diff clothes to sch...wearing a uniform makes ppl more of the same level and no barrier is between s..but with home clothes....everybody is weraing a diff mask to sch...trying to look frenly on the outside..but who knows what they are thinkin inside...been a victim to that for times in the past year...i really dun like this type of lifestyle...and i am drifting apart from my grp of good frens in my sec sch...i really miss my BB days when i have this grp of nice frens who will be there for eaxh other when we are sad...now that i am sad..no one really knows adn i got no one to share...I am so tired...thinking of wat i should do...i wanna take a rest...but i am nt willing to let go...cause i will let down alot ppl ard mi...they will be so disappointted in mi...i will be so sad for myself too..cause i have been thru too much to say i want to let go now...watching the 9 pm show on channel 8 now..looking on the clin in the show..it sort of reflects of the life i am experiencing in terms of my love life...i always fall in love with the wrong person..haha..dunno why...anyway...i dunno if i got anyone on my mind....why did that guy have to make a pact with that ger to be buddies forever...becos the guy loved that ger too much to leave her...that is why he is willing to be there for the ger when the ger needs someone to falls back on when she faces problem in the future...the guy is doing it all out of love for the ger and want to make the ger hapy by following her decisions in life...even including to be only frens forever with her..haiz...wat a sad love story but it has happened to mi umpteen times...wat a mirror..a cruel mirror..i try to tell myself that is life but who can accept that crap...if this is wat life is meant to be...why dun i see someone else getting hurt instead of mi..life is like an operation on the body....u need alot of anaesthestic so that in moments of hurt u will not feel the pain....haiz...i guess that is all from mi for now...see my blog later..::

.:Ah Hao blogged on 9:17 PM:.
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::Today is both a good day and a bad day... :( good day becos i have started to write a blog for the first time...in order to curb my boredom online..bad news is that i did quite badly for my ocomm test...hahaz...but is only 20% guess that i should be more optimistic..hahaz...i am so bored now....thru the good recommendation from my good fren Sophia..i decided to heed her advice and write a blog i call my own...haha..been a while since i wrote something like this..hahaz..quite nervous...hope u guys read the blog and give ur comments..hahaz...will be posting quite oftenly i guess...see ya ard..Cheers..::

.:Ah Hao blogged on 10:43 PM:.
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