::shitty day day again..

shitty feelings again..

it sucks to be like this..

are u trying to keep a distance from me?

i guess so too..

it's not easy to try to get closer...but i'm trying...

but it's seems to be repelling me everytime i try..

it sucks..

it really sucks..::

.:Ah Hao blogged on 9:55 PM:.
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::shifted office to MT today..damn sianz..went to work..didn't have a very good start..then in the middle was not that bad..but towards the part when moving to MT was pretty pissed...

then reach MT..waited and waited and waited...dunno for what...waste of time..

then of all ppl..let me meet that stupid person..talk also dunno how to use brain..totally pissed me off..but she was really lucky that i am not in the army anymore..

haiz..

alot of ups and downs lately again..

i feel contented to just see her and talk to her..but i think she doesn't feel that way..met her yest..she looked very bored thruout the whole time..then today i texted her..she also like no replies back at all..

i must admit it's pretty upsetting..but then i dun really have much choice...do i??

she's out tonite again..and i can pretty guess where she'll end up in the end..i dunno what to do abt it...or am i really like what my fren said...i'm fighting a losing battle..sianz...

monday will be the start of the super super boring office routine with the worst people sitting right near me..must think of a way to keep out of her sight...grr..

i have started to cut down on my smoking and maybe eventually quit...and i'm trying...and if u dunno anything..dun judge me b4 u do..cause it's not going to help me at all..

alright...pretty sianz and tired..dun feel like writing already too..the tot of everything upsets me..need to stay happy..so i can really try try try to cut down on smoking..::

.:Ah Hao blogged on 11:23 PM:.
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::wah..time to come and share my stories again...


feeling upside down lately..

i met this girl..initially wasn't very close but until one day we got to know each other better..then i realised that i actually start to like her..but stupidly stupidly i told her abt it..then she told me some stuffs that weren't very encouragin..and it hurts..

so fucked up..but then again..i really dunno what to do..it's been a really really very long while that i had felt this way...

will there be a fairy tale ending this time round?::

.:Ah Hao blogged on 1:15 PM:.
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