::i think i may need a shrink...i dunno..i think i am going crazy..

recently i have been getting very pissed at the slightest stuffs...especially when it comes to relationship stuffs...

me being single for this long...may be already bad enuff...but i keep hearing ppl talk to me abt their break ups...and what they think their partners did wrong..and bla bla bla...so on and so forth..

i am ok to listening to you and offering advice as a fren..but please be sensitive to how i would feel...

i dun need to know which girl u are meeting..what u did with her..what happened or whatsoever...

i am happy for you that u think u are doing well..but i am not..please dun attempt to rub it in..and i know that u didn't do it on purpose..but i just hope that i dun need to know..

this is just an emotional outburst here yet again..it means nth..i just need to talk to someone who listens and maybe who understand how i feel...cause i realise that my frens..dun really listen..most of the times...cause they have their own problems and they are too busy to care..which i can understand..

sometimes i think it's because i am too free...that i go ard poking my nose into ppl's business..cause i got no other commitments other than myself..i start to think that ppl take me for granted at times..

i know that i might not be a good fren..always bitching abt stuffs, ppl, and whatever..i get angry easily for the slightest of whatever..but i really dun want this..

i may appear to be very peety abt issues..but recetnly i am just unable to control how i feel..

every night i come home..i just dun feel good...i dun want to be alone..but it seems that it's unavoidable...i am losing my self..deeper..into the abyss of depression..

i want to push myself on..but i seriously cannot find any motivation to go on anymore..i cannot possibly move on at this rate...

sometimes i really feel like giving everything up..cause there's no point in me doing so much for ppl and ppl dun realise it..i seriously feel like fuck now..

i am losing my strength to move forward..and it's like a free fall into sadness now..back to where i was a couple of years back..which i dun want to..

i feel like crying..but there's no tears..how i wish i could just cry everything out and just let everything go..it's really upsetting to be like this..it is..

so if anyone reads this..

i am sorry if u thik that it's you that i am talking abt..but dun worry..it's not you at all...

everything i wrote here today..is all abt me..and only me..

Screw life..::

.:Ah Hao blogged on 4:46 PM:.
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::if u are reading what i am writing in this post..u can just ignore it...i am talking to my blog..i will be alright after this..

My V day post..(and it's not going to be pleasant)

Suddenly had another outburst of frustration...feeling pissed over every little thing..that's happening or not happening..

ARGH~~~~

I am so tired of being alone..not really in a relationship sense..but still...it sucks..

there are alot of things that i am keeping to myself..which i cannot tell anyone...cause no one will ever listen to me..even if they do...most of the time..they dun really care..

it sucks ok..it really sucks..to have no one to talk to..that i have to talk to this ever listening pathetic blog of mine...

as much as i hate to bottle things up..but there's no other avenue but to do that..

it's so much easier if i could cry the problems away..but i can't seem to cry..awake or drunk..

grrr...it's just sucky..plain sucky..::

.:Ah Hao blogged on 6:51 PM:.
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