::never realised that being on leave is so boring..

spent the last two working days clearing my leave...i must say..it's really boring..

can't seem to find anything to do...can't seem to find ppl to even talk to...

watched Madagascar today at yishun GV...it's funny..but alot of kids in the theater very noisy..

plus somemore i was alone..laughed out loud also like a idiot like that..

got to start getting used to life like these...then maybe i can feel abit better..

i dunno..but should try to start to do things on my own..see if it's better...

meanwhile..back to work..hopefully i get the extension..if not convert back to temp..see hwo it goes bahz...::

.:Ah Hao blogged on 10:00 PM:.
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::had a i dunno what to say weekend...

haiz..yet another one has past me by..

looing forward to the many more to come along..hahaz..

had sort of a heart to heart talk to my pals on friday night..

didn't manage to sort anyhting out..cause i dun think they understand a single bit of what i was trying to say..

i know there's alot more ppl out there somewhere who's either feeling the same way as me..or even worse..but my point is..i hope that it turns better..

or is it that i ma super not understanding to my frens that they have their own life to lead..

i also have my own like...and it's made up of them..all along it's ike that..when they needed someone..i was there..when i needed someone..i dun even know who will be ard..

maybe it's just my take on relationships is totally different to them..maybe their partners are more impt than anything else...and i dun really agree on that point..that's what making me feel miserable..

i dun understand how ppl can live with one person..and that one person alone...

true..i agree if i have a gf one day..i will give priority to her..but still..my frens are as impt..all along i have been like that...

maybe i dun make a good bf..but it seems that now..i dun even make a good fren to my frens..

that's pretty fucked up huh..i think i have to agree..

i am sick of all the stuffs that didn't materialise when ppl say that they will do it..

i am sick..so sick..of dunno whatever that seems to pissed me off now..


argh!!!!::

.:Ah Hao blogged on 11:36 PM:.
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::haven't got alot of time these past weeks to write somehting here..

dunno why..but i just feel like posting something here tonight...

need someone to rant to..but no one to listen...so here it goes to my blog..hehe

i feel lost..yet again..i just can't seem to find any direction in anything i do recently..or i should say i losing my drive for alot of stuffs..

why? i also dunno...

i miss my frens..all of them..but it seems that we dun talk that much anymore..i dun even know if they know that i am still ard..

i suddenly miss my army life..which alot of ppl says that i am crazy..

i seriously believe that i am someone who loves power...and i am someone who's power-driven..

i like the authority i had over my trainees when i was in camp..i love being called platoon sergeant..i love being the one whom ppl says yes to me..

it's not that i dun like my life now and i simply love army life..i just miss the feeling of what i mentioned above..therefore..i got to work hard in life..be who i want to be i guess...

haiz haiz haiz..

i hate to be feeling fucked up..but i still feel this way..why why why??

someone tell me..pls...

gonna go crazy soon..

=X::

.:Ah Hao blogged on 10:54 PM:.
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