::i manage to link my account up with the the old blog..haha...

dman sianz...

anothere uneventful day in the office..

tml will be a good day...(according to calvin who keeps talking nonsense in the office abt me and the the mian bao chao ren)

okok...going to bed..tml going to work..

3 more weeks to pay day..so gonna starve...::

.:Ah Hao blogged on 11:30 PM:.

::it's a bloody new beginning to my blogging life..

life is still as fucked up as the last tiem which i posted..which was like ard 2-3 yrs ago??hhahaz..

seems like certain things dun change in life..

alot of ups and downs...alot of screw up..alot of fun times..but still..good things actually dun last at all..and that's left behind are the lousy stuffs that ppl dun wanna remember..

i feeling so fucked up now..i really really got a problem...especially my social life...i'm losing control of everything..think i am going crazy soon..
i cna't seem to make any new frens with any meaning..and my good old frens of the past are all missing..

is it really like what ppl always say..frens will always move along when time passes you by..but i dun wanna be like that...

i love my frens..i certainly hope that they do so too...but recently..alot of things happen..and in particular..i am very upset abt that particular incident..and it is still bugging me..i nvr realises that a minor change in a person's life could have such a drastic effect on me..

am i weak??or am i just useless..or it's just that our frenship weren't built to last in the first place..or is it that i am just being selfish and want everyone ard me to be the same as me..i seriously dunno..i am feeling so fucked now..

can someone wake me up..properly..and live my life with a purpose??

i am just typing randomly now..whatever that comes to my mind i just type..

i am so tired of life..i wanna let go of everything..but it's impossible..there are alot of things that i want and and haven't acheieved yet..ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!11

i feel like a useless freak..a fucking useless freak..especially after i ord..there's no more excuses to make for myself..for being so lonely..feeling so unwanted..feeling so fucked...

fuck the fuck up stuffs in my life..i want a new beginning which i should have..

fuck everything..

fuck whatever that goes wrong..

fuck my work

fuck the world

fuck whatever..

i'm tired..i dun feel like moving on anymore...

save me...::

.:Ah Hao blogged on 11:14 PM:.
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