::hey hey hey...yoz yoz..

i am back..

first of all a BIG THANK YOU to all my frens who popped over and said that they care...thanks for everything..

i am freaking alright now!!!!!

managing well now..life seems to be picking itself up..and prepare me for the new year..
2 more days..to 2006!!!

hope that the coming year will be cool..cause i am turning 21..just in case u all dunno..my bdae is on 22nd April..so get ready ur gifts...hahahahahaz..

ok..got to sign off now..

thanks for all the care and concern my frens..

i'll see ya ard soon..and happy new year!!!!!!!::

.:Ah Hao blogged on 6:41 PM:.
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::been a long while since i last posted..

to whoever it may concern..
i know that u know how bad it feels to be hurt..
maybe it was just the way thing would have to end..
and people do change at times..
and it proves that this time round..
i will not be the one...
it would have hurt less if not for ur words that had made my day...
but at the end of the day..
i got nth else to say..

and to my frens who talked to me last night..thansk for everything..pamela,shermaine,hongting,jeremy..
thanks for everything..
thank you for making everything looks better..
and last but not least..to sham..
thank you for all the words of concern and encouragement on ur blog..
really appreciate it..
though i have lost something...
but i gained more good frens...
thanks to all of you for everything...::

.:Ah Hao blogged on 1:10 PM:.
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::13/12/2005 --> 240 days since i first met and talked to you...still missing you...

didn't know if what i had said had made any impact..
but i am really lost for words..
must admit that i am not perfect and maybe i am not good enuff..
it's pointless to be comparing the both of us...
we belong to two different worlds..
our committment towards our lifes are different..
i'm tied down by work which i readily accept with grace..
time is a very impt factor and i understand...
it's something that i cannot have any say abt it..
it's not that you are not impt..
and that other stuffs are more impt..
it's just that i have a responsibility to answer to everyone..
maybe that's the price to pay for all the pride and honour that comes with it..

i thought i could just kept silent..
but in the end..
i still could not keep myself shut..
cause i really find that i still care about everything that is happening to you..
i may not be the best man ard..
i may not be the one there when you needed me to be..
i may not be everything that you want..
i may not be everything that you need..
but i really cannot think about all the What IFs..

what if i had kept quiet and just let u move away?
what if i kept my distance and not care about you?
what if the past had not been like wat it was?
what if i had made full use of everything possible to convince you?
all the what ifs is killing me...

i am regretting..
seriously..::

.:Ah Hao blogged on 8:12 PM:.
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::been a while since i last blogged..reason for not blogging is very simple...i dunno wat to write on my blog..been busy with the challengers recruitment recently..and also settling the details of the camp...camp is coming in two weeks time..whee..i love camp days..hope the participants this time round will love it too...

mind is in a mess lately...think my brain is playing tricks with me..suddenyl..i lost all passion for the things i am doing..and suddenly it strikes back in me..

just had a very funny request from a fren of mine..asking for someone's number..was puzzled and felt funny...but i dunno why i was thinking abt it for so long and i actually acceded to the request...but i did it reluctantly..confused..

thinking***

hungry..going to catch a bite..then if i got the mood..i shall blog again later...::

.:Ah Hao blogged on 6:15 PM:.
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