::hahaz..finally got time to blog..hehe..

today is a nice day...drove for the first time sia..and it was to pick up dearie..hehe...it was fun driving alone..no restrictions at all...but i scared i get caught for speeding sia..hehe..was trying out my max speed at dairy farm road untill i saw the "speed Check area" sign on the side of the road..hopefully no TP was ard..hehe..if not sure suspend license one...50 km road i driving at 110 sia...so scared..praying hard..

went to thai express for lunch today..at holland V..it was nice...green seafood curry..dearie had curried soft shell crab...guess she really loved it..caused she finished everything...except for the rice..i finshed everything..except my curry gravy..hehe...suppose to return the car to dad at 4pm but then he sent me to go pick grandma up at kallang...and i brought her home to wait for my parents..

finally dad and mom and gang came home....we went to OCC for dinner..hehe..it was nice..had alot for dinner tonight and dearie was praised by my grandma sia...she say my dear clever sia..hehe...i got a smart dearie sia...at least to my grandma...and i agree too...cause she is smart..that is why she is mine..lolx..too bad guys..she is attached...

gave dearie the cds today..she seems to like have no reaction it lehz...but later in the night she told me she liked it..i think she means it..i love u dear..hee...

now on my bed talking to dearie..reading up the notes..hehe..and not forgetting blogging..multitasking..hahaz...gotta go..ciaoz..miss ya dear..if u are reading this..
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.:Ah Hao blogged on 12:58 AM:.
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::blogging for the second time today....that shows how free i am at home...i miss my dear...but she is not around and she is not free either..busy studying..jia you kz...u only got two papers..so relaxed..hehe..not like me..have to struggle with 5 papers..will have to do my best le..hopefuly i can do well...

i'm so bored...wondering where is she now...should be at the movies ba...she said she watchng a show with her brothers...i want so much to tell her that i really missed her alot..smsed her le..guess her hp is in the bag...that's why no reply as yet...i am still feeling bad about yesterday...and somemore she still sounds kinda reluctant to talk to me when i called her in the evening...hopefully things can turn out well in the end...although it has only been a short week since we got together...i feel really attached to her sia...dunno if i am too sticky or wat..i also dunno..i hope i am not...haiz..really dun like the feeling of having disagreements with other people...especially someone dear to me...

STUDY...the word that keeps appearing in my head..i need to STUDY..but no study partners..abit sianz....got questions also dunno ask who...HELP!~!~! i am going crazy...5 papers in 5 days and some matters affecting my mood...not in a really good condition to concentrate...that is why i am writing a blog...trying to diversify the troubles and stress so that i could concentrate on books..but guess that it is not helping..cause the more i write..the lousier the mood gets..haiz..gotta stop writing soon..if not really dead by the time i finish writing..

i really miss u dear...
i miss ya lots..

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.:Ah Hao blogged on 9:25 PM:.

::haven been updating my dear blog...gotta clear it of cobwebs le..hehe...

guess it has been a week since i last updated...alot of stuffs happened during this one week alone..the best thing that could ever have happened to me...finally i found the correct someone...so happy..i am enjoying every moment that i have with her and hope that she does also..i am really happy to have u dear..and i am serious...had some misunderstandings last night...and i am really very sorry for that...didn;t mean to do that..it just slipped off my mind and i wasn't sensitive to your feelings...but dun angry le k..i am really very upset abt it also...haiz...

went to rhino's chalet during the past weekend...had lotsa fun with the guys there..and not forgetting the time with my dear..rhinos going to army le..after friday..the yishun kia gang has to temporary close down le...boring..no ore ps2 meetings,no more cm network..hehe...but that means i will have more time for my dear...hehe...

okie..think i shall stop herer..gotta study for the common tests le...bye bye.take care to ppl who are reading this....an not forgetting to say i love u dear... :)
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.:Ah Hao blogged on 3:06 PM:.
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::haha...back from the elections meeting..finally got a position in the exco..guess wat...i am the project chairman...which is the default role btw..hahaz..but i am happy in that position..sophia got Welfare Sec. thanks to me and weimin and our publicity..lolx..congrats to kx also...our new Social Sec. MJ the President,James the VP,Desiree the Hon Gen,Eileen the asst Hon Gen,Lek Meng the Finance Sec,Anita the Publication Sec.

had dinner at al ameen and i sent sophia home after that..after she reached home then i went home and reached home at ard 1145..hehe..managed to talk to the other guys abt the chalet and i am having a wonderful chatting experience with the peeps, sophia,rhino,weimin and xinyi..talking rot..sensitive issues...still talking till now..rhino kenna questioned like mad..hahaz..

tml got lecture at 10 am..but i am still awake...haha..think i am gonna miss it le..hahaz..but cannot miss ief le..hahaz...ief is damn impt sia..hahaz..
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.:Ah Hao blogged on 3:10 AM:.
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::hahz..fianlly sometime to be able to blog.sort of miss my blog..guess some of u ppl out there are wondering why i never bother to update..now no time lahz..how to update..hahaz...ief project so stressed up le...haha...today went for elections meeting then reach there sit down fifteen mins then beocs the student council union representaticves did not meet the minimum requirement of the pl theere...therefore the meeting is postponed to thursday...sianz...have to wait bloody 7 hours on thursday...sianz..finally ief project abt to come to an end and biz etiqutte also...haha..so friday should be able to enjoy ba...hope so...seems like alot of ppl cannot understand tha actually we are facing financial shoratge for the upcoming chalet...but i certainly think the rates we are charging are reasonable and we have tried to cut it to the minimum le...but no one seems to be able to see the point and are like quite unhappy abt it as well..but then again,..i also dun wanna make everyone unhappy at the same time as well...so if they think we are asking too much for the chalet and dun wanna come..i wun force them also..cause i also have financial difficulties nowadays..hahaz..so frens..dun quarrel over these stuffs k..the chalet was organised with the vision to let us have fun..not to quarrel over simple stuffs..if we were to quarrel..then they will be no fun in the chalet..anyway...need to go do work le...might post more later....hehe..bye bye....
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.:Ah Hao blogged on 11:18 PM:.
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::haha..been busy lately...IEF is super stress sia...difficult module...with adifficult project with so little weightage in the project..but alot of work to do..sianz..sorry for not updating frequently... hehe...schol work stressful sia..haha...going to rhino hse...shall update later..
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.:Ah Hao blogged on 10:15 PM:.
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::i am so bored...that explains why i am blogging at this kind of hour ya...life kinda suck ya.haha...been crazy for a while le..seems like ppl ard mi are having better luck in relationships than me...congrats to those who just got together and to those that have lasted till now..hope u guys stay happy..hehe..as for me..stil on the barren road that leads me to nowhere in the foreseeable future...walking ard as if i am blind and keep knocking into stuffs..but wat ever lahz...just like wat my msn nick says "although life kinda suck, but we have to be grateful that we have a life to look forward to..cause tml will be better.." hope so...hehe..
so frens who are fcing sucky lifes now..remember..look forward to tml and not stay in the frame of those gone and forgetten scenes of others...cause time and tide waits for no one ya...time still move on even though we are hurt..and we have to move on to get away from the pain...so let's look forward to better days together ya...

dunno wat's wrong with me nowadays...my mood swings are back...but it is not serious yet..it only swings between happy and sad/boredom..never start to flare at anyoneat the moment..dun think i would..i wun shout at my frens..so dun worry guys...u still can talk to me...hehe..

playing cm now..with rhino...my blackburn is going down the hill sia...sianz...now currently with only a point in epl after 4 games in the new season..haiz..

dun be sad if there is no one for u to love...love yourself...

dun be sad if there is no one for u when u are down...be there for urself...

dun be sad if there is no shoulder to lean on when u need to cry....the pillow is also a good choice..

dun be sad if everyone is gone....u r still ard...dun lose urself to the world..but let the world find u

most impt thing of all...just DUN BE SAD..life has to go on no mater what has happened..happy or sad..we have to live on...so why not live happily and not pull a long face to everyone we see to mak them feel bad as well...haiz...but EASIER SAID THAN DONE...it's true...but it is not IMPOSSIBLE....that;s why we live on for...cause we have hope for better times after a bad patch....when there is hope...there will be light and when the light is there..move towards it..cause when we reach the light...we will get what we want..hehe...so people..let;s move on ya...

dunno why tonight i got so mush to say sia..i think it is becos it is late le..then alot of thoughts goning thru my mind..thought of my ex gfs...dunno why...out of the blue..start to feel the pain of losing them again..i think i am really afraid of finding a gf but losing them at the same time..haiz..was talking abt my ex gf with rhino and gang last night and images of those times came flashing back..haiz..save me people..i guess i am still picking myself up from there...for 2 years le..i have not moved on i guess..i thought i did..but when i see ppl ard me having problems with relationship or happiness with their partners...the tot of her comes back..haiz..

but i know i dun like her anymore...but the pain still remains there...are there painkillers for these type of pains??maybe a new gf might help..lolx..

i am not desperate for a gerl but maybe i just need someone whom i know we have feelings for each other...and that someone has to be a gerl of course..i ahve good brothers now..so maybe to balance the equation abit...a member of the opposite gender might help..it is 635 am now..and i am still typing my blog..first time spent so much time on a blog entry..lolz..so dun complain that i never write long blogs..this one is long enough to let u guys see..lolx..but maybe 80% are nonsense to u guys..i just felt that i need an outlet of my agony inside me...how i hope when i am sad i have someone dear to me to talk to me...and the dearest thing that will listen and not complain or tell me abt their personal stuffs now is my blog...sometimes i just love my blog..although i ignore it...but i still love it..maybe it was treated for granted..but nvm lahz..cause the blog cannot speak..so i think it will forgive me and be there for me always...am i right?? Blog: "Yes :)" u see...even my blog agrees...haha..at least my blog loves me..

rhino is complaining to me that i am taking abit too long complete my entry..hehe...but then again..i haven write for a long time le..and ya..I WANNA THANK ALL THOSE FRENS WHO HAVE GATHEREED THERIR FRENS TO VOTE FOR ME DURING THE EXCO ELECTIONS...I AMDE IT TO THE EXCO..THANKS U PPL...AND UR FRENS ALSO..FOR THE SUPPORT..THANK U...(feels like a politician now)but ehn again..i am trying to abstain from all the politics..i am bringing my belief into the SU i gues..which is Slack and dun get involved..hehe...ok lahz..i got to go le...black burn vs middlesborough....gotta win to survive..hehe..ciaoz...
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.:Ah Hao blogged on 5:49 AM:.
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