::haiz..another day of my boring life has passed once again...this morning suppose to go for my revision lecture but in the end i nvr woke up on time again...hahaz..that's the usual mi...i guess no one is watching this also...hahaz..so i can write all i want here...another boring day...went to sch at 3 pm..go home at 5 pm..something to be proud of myself today..i cooked spags for dinner tonite...it was super nice i tell u ppl out there..haha...whoever marries mi will be so fortunate..although i made a super big portion but i manage to finish all of it at one go...haha...i am so filled up now...but life has been so boring to mi...i dunno why...feel so out of place everywhere i go..no matter in class,in school,at home,with my frens almost with everybody..no matter with strangers or with ppl i have known for years..feel like i got no one who really knows mi and how i feel...how i miss my sec sch days when i can see and talk to everyone in class freely....my present class is just a combination of individuals who just says hi and bye to mi...maybe days iin a school uniform is better than this days with ppl wearing diff clothes to sch...wearing a uniform makes ppl more of the same level and no barrier is between s..but with home clothes....everybody is weraing a diff mask to sch...trying to look frenly on the outside..but who knows what they are thinkin inside...been a victim to that for times in the past year...i really dun like this type of lifestyle...and i am drifting apart from my grp of good frens in my sec sch...i really miss my BB days when i have this grp of nice frens who will be there for eaxh other when we are sad...now that i am sad..no one really knows adn i got no one to share...I am so tired...thinking of wat i should do...i wanna take a rest...but i am nt willing to let go...cause i will let down alot ppl ard mi...they will be so disappointted in mi...i will be so sad for myself too..cause i have been thru too much to say i want to let go now...watching the 9 pm show on channel 8 now..looking on the clin in the show..it sort of reflects of the life i am experiencing in terms of my love life...i always fall in love with the wrong person..haha..dunno why...anyway...i dunno if i got anyone on my mind....why did that guy have to make a pact with that ger to be buddies forever...becos the guy loved that ger too much to leave her...that is why he is willing to be there for the ger when the ger needs someone to falls back on when she faces problem in the future...the guy is doing it all out of love for the ger and want to make the ger hapy by following her decisions in life...even including to be only frens forever with her..haiz...wat a sad love story but it has happened to mi umpteen times...wat a mirror..a cruel mirror..i try to tell myself that is life but who can accept that crap...if this is wat life is meant to be...why dun i see someone else getting hurt instead of mi..life is like an operation on the body....u need alot of anaesthestic so that in moments of hurt u will not feel the pain....haiz...i guess that is all from mi for now...see my blog later..::

.:Ah Hao blogged on 9:17 PM:.
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