::My 100th post..but it's not some happy milestone..

sorry to all those whom i had told them i am alright..but i really cannot take everything myself..and i guess this is my only outlet..so bear with me for tonight...

sometimes i really wondered..

was whatever i had asked for from you in the past was over the expectations??

If anyone had asked me about everything about this issue a couple of months ago..i would still have said..i would still be able to understand that it was too rush to ask u to show that bit of effort to make everything work out between us..despite me assuring you that everything would turn out fine if you had put everything in the open..

guess u really learnt something out of the past..and u put it into practise..

to be honest..i am really disappointed..

i really am..

cause what i had wanted to see..is right before my eyes now..but from a third person's perspective..

i dun want to talk abt who had put in more effort in whatever shit..but do come into my shoes to see how you would have tot of everything that i am looking at now..

i am really sorry if my words had hurt anyone in the process of tonight's post..

but i feel really fucked up at this moment..and feel that i have been deluding myself recently...

fuck everything..

last 6 weeks of school...

gotta work real hard to pass...

but i am really tired of school..

need a counsellor i guess...

going crazy..

i'm mad...

mad..::

.:Ah Hao blogged on 4:22 AM:.
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