::haven't got alot of time these past weeks to write somehting here..

dunno why..but i just feel like posting something here tonight...

need someone to rant to..but no one to listen...so here it goes to my blog..hehe

i feel lost..yet again..i just can't seem to find any direction in anything i do recently..or i should say i losing my drive for alot of stuffs..

why? i also dunno...

i miss my frens..all of them..but it seems that we dun talk that much anymore..i dun even know if they know that i am still ard..

i suddenly miss my army life..which alot of ppl says that i am crazy..

i seriously believe that i am someone who loves power...and i am someone who's power-driven..

i like the authority i had over my trainees when i was in camp..i love being called platoon sergeant..i love being the one whom ppl says yes to me..

it's not that i dun like my life now and i simply love army life..i just miss the feeling of what i mentioned above..therefore..i got to work hard in life..be who i want to be i guess...

haiz haiz haiz..

i hate to be feeling fucked up..but i still feel this way..why why why??

someone tell me..pls...

gonna go crazy soon..

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.:Ah Hao blogged on 10:54 PM:.
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